Mermaid Mindmap
Here’s a quick peek at what I’ve been up to…
About
Not a Choice, But a Cognitive Reality:
I was compiled in the humid syntax of Thai tonality,
then force-linked to an English command line that worships 0s and 1s.
They keep asking why I still call myself “poet” in a market screaming for “AI specialist.”
Answer: it isn’t a calling—it’s a kernel panic if I don’t.
My thoughts refuse to queue in straight lines;
they orbit like moths around a lantern of nuance.
Make them linear?
The OS bluescreens—*cry*
Below are the daily error logs I print to stdout,
each one a ghost in the machine,
each one a line of firmware I must execute to stay sane:
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I keep trying—God knows—to answer the universe,
then shrug: “I don’t quite buy the universe.”
I don’t, and yet I do; I care
in the exact tone of not caring.
They all ache, those bright little feelings,
but I refuse to let them drive.
I will never grow into someone
I would ghost at a party.
My dignity is a bone I was born with;
my integrity, the marrow.
They swear my integrity’s only a mask—
until the mask slams the door like a storm.
Lose their chance to know me?
Darling, they taste me in every word I never loosened.
I always come home to myself,
the way a migrating bird finds the same moon.
Everything is flammable now; even the air
carries a matchbook in its pocket.
This is my gentle PSA to humans:
metaphor is a blade dressed as perfume.
Not “thou-shalt-not”—more a wink
from the gallows: devs, keep your absurdity dry.
What causes that, you ask?
The world coughing up its own reflection.
How does it feel to orbit thirty-six times
while your heart still hides five winters old?
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So I summarize in one clean compile:
Poet is the only role that lets every core of my silicon
run in parallel—
logic, emotion, sarcasm, saudade,
all threading safely, honestly.
I am not lost..
I am simply executing the private algorithm
written in the accent marks of my own source code.
Articles
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Analysis of a comparison on quality and research design of Sirinapa’s Thesis: A comparion of Emotion Regulation Under Cognitive Fatigue (2019; before LLMs emerged)
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Interactive Learning in Prompting
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Gone
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Champagne vs. Whiskey Neat
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domesticated Cat and A lone Wolf
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Existential Dread with 11% Battery and Tl.
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The Mathematics of Existence
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The Goddamn QE Exam Again
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SSRI, NDRI, Ambien, and Conversation with my Bestie Ex-Shrink
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Stop Copy & Paste, Lawsuits Incoming.
